Hey Y'all,
So today has been a long day, only to find out that tonight when I went out to the car at about 7 P.M. that my windshield had a crack in it...Ill post the picture later when I get it uploaded into my pad that I am working on while posting my blogs...Unbelievable I've only had my Jetta about 3-4 months now I guess and its so upsetting cause I didn't notice it when I left the university and had I noticed it then I could have said something to them about. Who knows if it even happened there and now I have to get up tomorrow at 7 A.M., get the baby up, and head all the way up to Appleton to the Volkswagen Dealership and have them look at it. It looks like a double cut starting from the bottom of where the windshield actually begins...So I have absolutely no idea what in the heck happened. All I know it is a big inconvenience!!
Getting back on track with what I had planned on blogging about initially!! I got up this morning all well thinking I was going to be able to go in to school at 8 am but D had better plans for me and she decided to get up about 5 am and want some milk so punched me in the back of the head, so I got her back to bed and then at about 7ish she was back up again and I knew by the time I got her back to sleep that J had just got to sleep around 4-5 so there was no way I could go in when I finally got the baby back to sleep since he would be home with her all day awake. So when I finally got her back to bed I laid back in bed and snoozed for about half hour to 45 min and she was zonked again and that was when I knew to go for it. So I got up and took my medication, started coffee, jumped in the shower, checked on D, she was still zonked (yay!!!) Time for make-up and hair, which I had still a bottle of this volumnizing shampoo from sally's I had forgot about, so I thought, "What the heck!" To my amazement, Along with this other product that I have that works wonders on my hair, My hair looked awesome today! hehe! So next to get my make-up done which is a breeze, I get that done is under 10 minutes at the most! Check on the baby!!~~~ Still sleeping Yay!!! So hair and make-up done. Change into my outfit I am going to wear to school from my comfy shorts and tank top I put on after my shower!! Last things left to do, Look in the mirror for any touch ups, even though I am just going to school, I have to still look decent to feel good about myself, see my mom was taught that you never leave the house without your make-up done or your hair done and a decent pair of pants and a decent shirt on. Doesn't mean you have to be dressed up or anything just a nice pair of jeans and a nice shirt, so I say all of that to say this, I used to be totally like that but since I had my surgeries and went on disability and been a stay home mom, there hasn't been a need to do my make-up or my hair, yes a shower of course but I didn't feel like the other stuff so I getting into the swing of the other stuff. Yay!!! Its getting to feel more normal as the days go on, but there are days it feels like a down right struggle but I can't let it get the best of me cause if I do then it wins and I can't let it win, I have to push on. So I ended up snapping a few pictures cause it was a good hair and make-up day!! I know sounds silly but that's what some of us girls do, well that's what this girl does!!! lol..
Today the back pain was better than yesterday, still there but more manageable, unlike yesterday when I felt like I wanted to crawl into a hole and just die but that wasn't until after we got back from breakfast. I got up around 9ish and went out with my upstairs neighbor, who is a friend/ ex boyfriend from many years ago, almost 10 years ago and my girls god fathers. I went to breakfast with him and mutual friend who drove up from where we both used to live. He actually came up to go to the races over in 141 speedway over is Francis Creek. I was going to go with them but when we got back I realized that some kind of critter had gotten into my garbage and left me a very nice present. I had made a huge chicken dinner a couple night prior and whatever it was got into that bag and thought it was getting a present, sorry guy, we didn't throw out any chicken. But, in any event I had chicken wrappers laying out and when I packed up all the bags into new garbage bags, my back had locked up from bending over. I wanted to die so I went and laid down with my little one for an hour or so and the boys went to races. Actually it was a good thing I didn't go with them to the races cause the races were suppose to get over at 4 p.m. or so S had told me at one point in time, cause we were suppose to grill out and I texted him at 5 and at 6 and it was almost 6:15 when I finally heard from him, which you can imagine I wasn't happy to begin with but he says the last two races were taking forever, which was weird for that track. But, anyways needless to say they didn't get back till almost 8 and we didn't cook out. Thank goodness I didn't go with cause my back would have really been hurting by that time and my kids would have been screaming for me and I would never have gotten any homework done all day. Plus I had gone shopping earlier in the day cause I needed a bowl to match my new kitchen table and I needed to take a pair of jeans a shirt back. So I went to Pier One and Maurices. I got a nice gold bowl and smelly stuff to go in it for on top of my kitchen table cause my kitchen table is marble topped and I took a pair of jeans and a shirt back to Maurices. I got another pair a jeans and 4 new shirts. Yay!!!!
Well, I got some of my homework done tonight before I started this blog post, now when I get off of here I have to do my math assignment and search on my windows 8 pad for a app since I have a learning disability and see if they have one like read outloud like the school has since the one the school has doesn't work or isn't compatible with my pad and the exact reason we got my pad was for school. We chose the pad was because it was smaller and easier than a laptop for me to carry and I wouldn't have to lug around a huge heavy laptop so there has to be something for me or I am going to scream....
Well, good night all,
xoxoxoxox
Monday, October 7, 2013
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Stress will get you down!!
Greetings All,
Well, I know that I started my blog and then I rather abandoned it, and I do apologize. It has been a very stressful, and I can honestly say I never thought it would be so stressful as it has gotten so far in such a short time that I have been going to school. Alas, now it has calmed down and I am able to devote my time to other things and spread myself around a bit.
I am learning slowly and I do mean slowly how to it is to separate myself in order to get each and everything accomplished on time. I didn't realize how what it was going to be like when I first had this idea to switch from online schooling to actual campus based schooling. However I am not regretting the decision I chose but just a challenge and a challenge I am enjoying, just one it is taking a little time getting used to. It is one that I need to really figure out how to use my time wisely between getting my studies done without getting side tracked which is a task in itself coming from a person who has ADHD really bad, family time because I have 2 girls that are 13 years old and 2 years old totally separate ages of the spectrum and getting back into the swing of cooking dinner as much as possible. So with getting dinner made, I have come up with a solution on that one and I figured out that I will make dinner on Tuesdays, Thursdays, and maybe Fridays or else we have that dedicated to Pizza night. I figure I will definitely make dinner on Saturday and Sunday nights since those nights I can fix something early enough and I can still get studying in on Sunday nights and the baby a definite bath (well she does get bath other nights too but you know what I mean). My upstairs neighbor seems to have adopted my cooking too, well, I should say still since we once back in the day dated so he is more than happy to find out when the apartment became vacant and the bonus to moving in was knowing that he might be able to get some meals here and there....needless to say I never learned how to cook small meals, so when it was just my oldest and I living together for a short period of time I had the hardest time cooking..lol...I guess I am glad he is living upstairs cause I have someone else to cook for and give extras too!!! Plus, he is also a great babysitter for the little one when I need to give my 13 year old some time off!!
Another thing I have noticed that with going to campus school, and you will notice me using that phrase a lot when I talk as opposed to online school is that I am starting to become me again!! What I mean by that is I am becoming a bit happier again, even though I am stressed out. Just so everyone who will start reading this knows, I don't work and its not because I don't or choose not too, its because I can't. I am on disability for my back. I have had 2 major back surgeries that didn't work and the first one was botched. The surgeon is actually on trial right now for health care fraud and was already sued for malpractice for operating on the wrong side of the guys back. The surgeon who did my back actually put the wrong size screws in my back and they ended up going completely thru my spine and the fusion that they did never took. So I ended up having the second surgery. Well, I also found out they operated on the wrong level. I also have a congenital birth defect in which my spine never completely developed. Now you might think that is strange because I look fine but I also have a spine disorder called spondylosis and spondylolisthesis in which the vertebrae shift out of line anywhere from 10-100% and im between 50-75% and I also found my congenital birth defect and spondylolisthesis might very well be linked to spina bifida occulta, but not 100% sure, so don't quote me on it.
Now, getting back to my original thought, I haven't worked since Feb 2009, had my 1st surgery in 2010 and my second one in 2012 so needless so to say I haven't really had much time to hold a real job but I have hit bouts of depression and it has really taken a toll on me. The old me hasn't surfaced for sometime due to the fact that I haven't really been out of the house. I used to waitress for a living, actually I did it for 12 years as a single mom so going from doing that to smack staying home doing absolutely nothing, definitely takes a toll on a person...I needed to change that and that's why I chose to go to campus school, I needed to get out of the house and socialize. I actually love getting out of the house and meeting everyone that I have so far, its actually pretty awesome, however every so often I do feel a little out of my element. I see all these young kids, who are skinny young girls and then I look in the mirror and I see me who is 35 with 2 kids...lol...but hey, I think I look pretty good for my age!!! I have to since I can't change it or do anything about it. I feel good most days, yeah I have my pain everyday but I take my meds, get in the shower (which is a task all in its own) have my coffee, do my hair and make up, and it feels good cause I have more a reason to do my hair and make up... I have new clothes to wear and that makes me feel good and I go to school and I have friends that I have made, even if I only see them at school, it still feels good.
I think it is something that needed to be done, getting enrolled at school. I was miserable just sitting at home. Even though I have been a bit stressed out with a couple projects that have been due. All I was doing was sleeping and then laying around the house getting nothing done, feeling hopeless and empty. I felt like there was nothing for me worthwhile around here and now I feel like there is something more. So we shall see where this leads and what comes from it. If nothing else I am happier now and it seems like everyone around the house is happier too.
Well, I have to finish dinner and get some studying done.
Until next time,
Kelly lynn
Well, I know that I started my blog and then I rather abandoned it, and I do apologize. It has been a very stressful, and I can honestly say I never thought it would be so stressful as it has gotten so far in such a short time that I have been going to school. Alas, now it has calmed down and I am able to devote my time to other things and spread myself around a bit.
I am learning slowly and I do mean slowly how to it is to separate myself in order to get each and everything accomplished on time. I didn't realize how what it was going to be like when I first had this idea to switch from online schooling to actual campus based schooling. However I am not regretting the decision I chose but just a challenge and a challenge I am enjoying, just one it is taking a little time getting used to. It is one that I need to really figure out how to use my time wisely between getting my studies done without getting side tracked which is a task in itself coming from a person who has ADHD really bad, family time because I have 2 girls that are 13 years old and 2 years old totally separate ages of the spectrum and getting back into the swing of cooking dinner as much as possible. So with getting dinner made, I have come up with a solution on that one and I figured out that I will make dinner on Tuesdays, Thursdays, and maybe Fridays or else we have that dedicated to Pizza night. I figure I will definitely make dinner on Saturday and Sunday nights since those nights I can fix something early enough and I can still get studying in on Sunday nights and the baby a definite bath (well she does get bath other nights too but you know what I mean). My upstairs neighbor seems to have adopted my cooking too, well, I should say still since we once back in the day dated so he is more than happy to find out when the apartment became vacant and the bonus to moving in was knowing that he might be able to get some meals here and there....needless to say I never learned how to cook small meals, so when it was just my oldest and I living together for a short period of time I had the hardest time cooking..lol...I guess I am glad he is living upstairs cause I have someone else to cook for and give extras too!!! Plus, he is also a great babysitter for the little one when I need to give my 13 year old some time off!!
Another thing I have noticed that with going to campus school, and you will notice me using that phrase a lot when I talk as opposed to online school is that I am starting to become me again!! What I mean by that is I am becoming a bit happier again, even though I am stressed out. Just so everyone who will start reading this knows, I don't work and its not because I don't or choose not too, its because I can't. I am on disability for my back. I have had 2 major back surgeries that didn't work and the first one was botched. The surgeon is actually on trial right now for health care fraud and was already sued for malpractice for operating on the wrong side of the guys back. The surgeon who did my back actually put the wrong size screws in my back and they ended up going completely thru my spine and the fusion that they did never took. So I ended up having the second surgery. Well, I also found out they operated on the wrong level. I also have a congenital birth defect in which my spine never completely developed. Now you might think that is strange because I look fine but I also have a spine disorder called spondylosis and spondylolisthesis in which the vertebrae shift out of line anywhere from 10-100% and im between 50-75% and I also found my congenital birth defect and spondylolisthesis might very well be linked to spina bifida occulta, but not 100% sure, so don't quote me on it.
Now, getting back to my original thought, I haven't worked since Feb 2009, had my 1st surgery in 2010 and my second one in 2012 so needless so to say I haven't really had much time to hold a real job but I have hit bouts of depression and it has really taken a toll on me. The old me hasn't surfaced for sometime due to the fact that I haven't really been out of the house. I used to waitress for a living, actually I did it for 12 years as a single mom so going from doing that to smack staying home doing absolutely nothing, definitely takes a toll on a person...I needed to change that and that's why I chose to go to campus school, I needed to get out of the house and socialize. I actually love getting out of the house and meeting everyone that I have so far, its actually pretty awesome, however every so often I do feel a little out of my element. I see all these young kids, who are skinny young girls and then I look in the mirror and I see me who is 35 with 2 kids...lol...but hey, I think I look pretty good for my age!!! I have to since I can't change it or do anything about it. I feel good most days, yeah I have my pain everyday but I take my meds, get in the shower (which is a task all in its own) have my coffee, do my hair and make up, and it feels good cause I have more a reason to do my hair and make up... I have new clothes to wear and that makes me feel good and I go to school and I have friends that I have made, even if I only see them at school, it still feels good.
I think it is something that needed to be done, getting enrolled at school. I was miserable just sitting at home. Even though I have been a bit stressed out with a couple projects that have been due. All I was doing was sleeping and then laying around the house getting nothing done, feeling hopeless and empty. I felt like there was nothing for me worthwhile around here and now I feel like there is something more. So we shall see where this leads and what comes from it. If nothing else I am happier now and it seems like everyone around the house is happier too.
Well, I have to finish dinner and get some studying done.
Until next time,
Kelly lynn
Monday, September 16, 2013
This is the start to a new life with a new blog, would you like to come along for the journey???
Hey Ya'll!!!! I'm back again....I know I said in my last blog I was done with blogger and that I was never coming back well guess what I've come back home and I do believe I am home for good. The best part is...my life is changing and changing for the better...
Things are so much better now, I just wish I could have gotten myself better, myself and what I mean is a routine and getting up everyday and doing the everyday things normal people do with and underlying reason and that my dear friends or anyone reading this...I am enrolled in college and this would be the start to my 3rd week...Yay!! its been 3 weeks already and I feel great.
Things are so much better now, I just wish I could have gotten myself better, myself and what I mean is a routine and getting up everyday and doing the everyday things normal people do with and underlying reason and that my dear friends or anyone reading this...I am enrolled in college and this would be the start to my 3rd week...Yay!! its been 3 weeks already and I feel great.
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